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A thought drop down from Heaven

FYI, it's my 120th post since I started blogging 2 years ago.

Today, we had dinner at Ah Yee restaurant at Turf City. One of the business associate treated the whole company (from logistics to admin to sales) and we had a private room to ourselves with a Karaoke function. Had Alaska crabs, Australian lobsters, clam shoots, fishes, Jumbo crabs and fried hor fun. It was like a feast with super duper high cholesterol stuff after I mentioned the above items. There was also free flow of red wine and beer. Thank God I am allergic to alcohol and thus I do not have to face situations of drinking.

Everyone seems to have a merry time eating & drinking, including my dad. Because it's only once a year my dad gets to eat so much seafood and drink so much red wine at one shot. My mum forbids my dad from eating all these. The only seafood we cook at home is fish. No crab, no prawn. Half a glass of red wine per nite for him at home.

Just when everyone was enjoying themselves with all the drinking and going around challenging people to drink up, I began to feel out of place. I was asking myself why did I come? It's around 10pm and I could have went back home after work and practiced my guitar for worship for tomorrow's cell! I believe that God wants me to learn something out of it and it was indeed the case.

In one scenario, one of my colleague was so drunk (after going around drinking up red wine with the fellow colleagues) that he "merlion"-ed not once but 4 times on the sofa. His face turned very pale and he weighs over 100kg. You can imagine all the crab meat, lobster meat and noodles came out of his mouth and stained the sofa and the carpet of the room. Ewuuu... Though my dad didn't "merlion", he drank alot of red wine and was already tipsy by his behaviour. I was there for a purpose. To look after him and fetch him home safely. During the car journey back, my dad just dozed off within 5mins out of turf city when I drove past adam road. I began to reflect that when I was young, I was at the passenger seat dozing off after attending uncle/auntie's wedding dinners or after shopping and my dad just drove and made sure all of us are home safely. We somehow swapped roles for that moment and I feel that God is just preparing me for the future. To be one who will not be at the passenger seat in life but at the steering wheel with God being the GPS to lead and show the way and also to protect my loved ones.

In another scenario, there is this little girl, Bev, who is 19 years old working as an admin staff in the company. After knowing her for some time, she is somehow related to my little sis. They had a common friend in friendster. They also share some very similar traits. They have a nose stud, several earrings and are one of the rising and common trend of teenage smokers. She is of legal age to smoke while my lil sis is not. But what God just placed upon my heart is that He is letting me to "see" and "understand" how my lil sis would have behaved outside. For the past few years, I didn't get to really fulfill my role as an elder brother to take care and look out for my lil sis. By talking to her and looking at her actions, it's like how I should be talking to my lil sis. In a less authoritative but a more friendly cum caring approach. Though she smokes, we shouldn't look down on her but treat her like everybody else. God tells us to hate the sin but love the sinner. Thus, I shouldn't look at my lil sis in the way I used to see her. Of coz the girl is not my actual lil sis and there will be differences between the two but at least I began to see a glimmer of hope in the restoration of the relationship between my lil sis and I. If I can talk to Bev like she's my lil sis, I believe I can do the same for my actual lil sis.

Actually this thought just inspired me to pen it down in words even though it's late at night. Not bad, 2 thoughts from Heaven in a night. Thank you! =)

posted by tornado @ 8:15 AM