"Oops I did it again"
I didn't want it to happen though it happened again.
Disappointed but not as disappointed during the very first time it happened.
Crushed but not defeated this time round.
I believe in miracles and one day I will come out victorious though Victory belongs to the Lord.
I'll be back stronger, better and wiser.
God, grant me time and perseverance.
A break from my usual post- featuring our star at home
Presenting the star of our home, also my little sis's favourite pet. He's Doby, our Seiberian Husky.
He is very kaypo. Likes to hang around in whatever we are doing outside, eg, watering the plants, feeding the fishes, washing the car.
He is very greedy, likes to eat whatever that can be eaten. When I feed the fishes, he always demands to have some of them!
He is very kiasee. Such a big dog though likes to chase cats but when the cat stop moving, he also stop moving-maybe he don't know what to do next. When there is thunder, he will come into the house and hide in some corner where he will think he is safe from lightning strike. "faint"
He is very lovable by our neighbours. He is welcomed by many of our neighbours when he is out for his morning walk. Yes, he goes out alone when the gate is open and comes back when he had enough. We will know it when he find that the gate is locked and will bark from outside hinting that he wants to come into the house. Smart dog. For more pictures of Doby, you can view it at my
fotopic collection.
Alone to work again
Just came back after sending my dad to the airport. He's on a business trip (fully paid by the principal) to meet the principal for 10 days. Praying for journey mercy throughout these 10 days. Before he checked in, we (me and my sis) went to the first class lounge to sit and enjoy the classy ambience only enjoyed by frequent flyers and first class flyers. I was wondering when will I get the privilige to have such treatment too (if don't have I also don't mind). While walking back to the carpark, a sign held at the pacific coffee caught my eye. It says"
thought of the day - What a child seldom receive he can seldom later give - P.D. James". How true.
Tomorrow I'll be alone to work again. No direct mentor except seeking advice from my other colleagues. I'll also be driving my dad's car to work. I'll be going to a customer to sign off a million dollar contract and possibly another million if things go well. However, these are not my credit but my dad's of coz. As I'm only 5months old in the business, I do not want to bare the responsibility though there wouldn't be any hiccups. I still asked my uncle to accompany me there and let him have the honour to do the signing. For now, I'll be handling the technical aspect of the contract.
One thing that struck me to ponder. My dad asked me how I have been learning in the company so far. Quite alot but still far from even 20% knowledge of all the things that the company has. I said my other colleague, who is the other boss's son should have learned more things than I because he has been in the company for 3 years and has been handling alot of "ja-ba-lang" stuff. Well, to each of his own and I still feel that as long as everyone is working for the company, it doesn't matter who got the contract or who earned more. It's a matter of giving our best and helping one another. My dad told me to teach only when people ask BUT not to teach everything. Must keep some for own to have the edge. Machiam those martial arts teacher who teach the student 90% of the skills but 10% he will keep for himself in case the student overthrow and he still got 10% more and handle him. Hmmm... will not think that much but focus on my own learning and try to absorb as much as I can. Everything that I have is blessed by God.
1st home leave
Yesterday was the 1st home leave for my lil sis. One which my lil sis was waiting for the day to come and one which my parents were looking forward to. Her 2 good friends also went to SGH to wait for her to come out. I could see that my mum was very happy when she brought her home. The first thing she did was to have her haircut because girls are naturally conscious of their hair.
She seemed less hot tempered and more matured after 3 months at SGH. She came back home with her friends (good ones I think coz none smoke) and they somehow gathered to celebrate her first home leave. The whole scene reminded me of my teenage years having fun and laughter.
She "booked in" at 545pm today and somehow this will carry on for at least another year. Currently, it's 1 home leave per fortnight. Depending on her performance, she may get rewarderd to 3 weeks per month with the balance being parent visit to SGH on the weekend.
Today I watched Singapore all-stars vs Melbourne Tigers in the Philips Cup on Ch24. I was really suprised when Singapore managed to lose 68-86. This is a close margin compared to the Malaysian all-stars lose to the Tigers by more than 50+ points yesterday. Was it because Singapore was good? Erm.... Yes, they are. They got people that can slam somemore. And guess what, their starting line-up, all are foreign imports. I'm not sure whether their bench, got 50% are local talents or not. Hmmm.... if Singapore soccer were to make it to the WC, it should be like this similar case. Sigh, sad but true..... for now. I rest my case....
A little encouragement from heaven
I'm not sure whether God heard my complaint and disappointment in my previous post, but I had a little surprise today.
Firstly, there was a sudden influx of purchase orders that came in and the amount wasn't little nor huge. Maybe God encouraged me in my act of obedience to do His work.
The following event is one thing that really surprised me. I saw a "power weekend" flyer in my workplace!!!?!!! Though I do not know who had the flyer and placed it there (i'm still finding out which colleague of mine), but I know that at least this ticket wasn't thrown into the dustbin. Plus the fact that many of the colleagues downstairs (logistics) are buddhists or free-thinkers (all Gods are the same that type of free thinker), seeing the flyer there is already a miracle. I was thinking maybe yesterday one of them went to Orchard and some one from my cell pass to him. Or else one of my colleagues' friend is from TCC and passed him this flyer. Or someone from other cells was distributing the flyers where my colleague is walking and he took it. But anyway, the fact that I saw the flyer in my workplace is a little encouragement from heaven.
Amen.
Rejections, rejections and more rejections...
Nope, my quotations weren't rejected my customers but I was rejected by girls (not 1 but many) and guys (don't anyhow think). Ya, out in the streets or Orchard Road on a hot national day afternoon.
Was out on the streets with my fellow cell mates to distribute "I need a miracle-power weekend" flyers. Each one of us was allocated different areas (Eg, outside hereen, outside cinelesiure, outside mandarin hotel, outside somerset mrt. I was stationed to the area closer to taka but still within mandarin hotel vicinity. As I held the stack of flyers, I was telling to God that every single flyer that i'm holding is a ticket for a person to be able to go to heaven and I'm not going to rest until I give all of them.
Just as I was walking towards my area, I saw one of the flyer in the dustbin!! I was thinking no one else was ahead of me giving out the flyers, how come in the dustbin already. It dawned upon me that maybe a few hours ago, another cell was distributing around the same area. There goes a ticket. You must be wondering how come I go look at dustbin? Because normally I receive flyers out in the streets I would throw them into the dustbin after reading (but it's because it's really rubbish material)
After 15min of giving out the flyers, I only managed to give out about 10+ flyers (i got about 80+ of them initially). I received a call from 1 of my friends, she said she already finished giving out and were chilling out at Swensons already!! I was thinking,"is it because they are girls and that's why easy to give out so fast?? or I'm so unlucky?" Many people either gave me the 5 finger sign or treated me as Ms invisible's cousin.
Another 15min had gone and I had only cleared half of my stack. 2 of my fellow cell mates came and helped me with half of what I have left. Within another 10min, I managed to clear up everything! Before I went to meet the others at Swensons, I went to peak at the dustbins along the stretch of mandarin hotel and I should just say there was
no dustbin that
does not have any ticket to heaven in it. I just felt demoralised that I was rejected so many times even though I dressed nicely, I smiled at them and I even stand in the sun instead of the shade to show my sincerity. Of coz there were people whom saw my gesture and when I passed them the flyers, they didn't give me the 5 finger sign and they took it. I was also the last to finish giving and with external help too. =(
The only consolation thing was that I get to see my dear with her family at kallang river to watch the NDP fireworks. But I have to fetch my sis and her fren from esplanade area after that and thus couldn't join her for dinner. =/
I just pray that out of the 60+ flyers that were given out through me (with don't know how much percentage of the flyers went to ministry of environment currently), 1 come for the power weekend I'll be very contented already. At least I would know that the afternoon of sweat cum "humiliation and rejection" didn't go down to the drain. =\
I missed the days......
It suddenly dawned upon me how much I missed some of the things i've done in the past which is quite impossible to happen again.
Of course there are other things which I miss but those stuff can be re-ignited either through meeting up and catching up again with friends thus i'm just blogging things that are not possible to happen again (almost).
I miss my secondary school days in VS
- I went for leadership camps and leading people who were just 2 years younger than me
- I went to support the national track and field finals with my friends at the national stadium
- me and my fellow NCC friends canoed round Singapore island in a span of 3 days, tried sailing, night navigation using boat round changi-punggol-sembawang area.
- our class often hung out at hougang mall after school and chit chat till dinner time.
I miss my jc days
- I became the best trainee in the leadership camp
- me and my fellow teammates canoed round Pulau Ubin several occasions
- we trained and "beat" our body till we were at our peak physically. (doing 20+ chin-ups and going to the gym were our norm thrice a week)
I miss my army days
- even though we had strict discipline, the feeling of winning the best combat unit cannot be described in any ways (cause we really sweat and gone through alot)
- we marched 72km from 7pm to the following afternoon and that was when we got our coverted red beret
- we marched the padang in year 2000's NDP. Even though there were hip-cups at the actual day, the feeling of pride for the country, for the unit is something that each one of us who participated cherished
I especially miss my uni days,
- I walked down from north spine to south spine to meet my dear dear after class, or even meeting up during our free hours to study together in the library or CITS.
- I had crispy waffle with ice cream, breakfast of toast kaya bread, egg and tea with my dear dear at the "bus stop"
I really miss those days..... what do you miss in your memory lane?
Time Flies....
Realised I haven't blog for 3 weeks. Maybe it was due to nothing much to blog about. Maybe i've been giving myself reasons for me to procrastinate from blogging. Maybe I'm just physically and mentally tired after work and stuff. Anyway, let's start the ball rolling...
2weeks ago i had my convocation. Took these pictures.
The first two pics were taken by my mum who managed to take from 2nd storey of the auditorium. Cool right to see a sea of graduates with their gowns and professors in their respective university gowns.
My 2 buddies in my last 18months in NTU. We were in the "same boat". Now only Ming went and did something that is of related to what he studied. An engineer in Keppel shipyard.
Me and my dear dear!! So happy that she was there on my convocation. =) That sums up the the memorable time that happened a fortnight ago.
Last week during cell on friday, I was assigned to lead a game. As I was told to make it an interactive one, I asked my dear for help coz my drawing is very lousy. My dear draw these animals freehand. Very very nice hoh. The cards form the animal game. Basically 2 people will face off and have 2 cards (either elephant and cat or lion and mouse). Whoever wins will get to ask the other person a question. Something about the person which not many people know. (eg, lion will win cat but lose to elephant while elephant will win lion but lose to mouse)
Guess what are the questions asked? I shall reveal the questions but shall not say it is directed to who and what did the person say to provide secrecy. (sounds like a game most of us played in secondary/JC- truth or dare. Just that this time there's only truth. ;p)
- if you were to choose to find a gf/bf within the ministry, who would you most probably choose and why?
- name 5 characteristics that you want in your future husband/wife.
- name 5 characteristics that you would not want to see in your future partner.
- describe your dream house.
- describe your dream vacation
- describe your dream vacation.
Yesterday my parents went to visit my lil sis and she is now learning hairdressing. Heard that she is picking up fast. She's already into learning her 3rd set of module (tieing of hair, dyeing of hair, now is perming) while other gals are still stuck in their 1st. When my dad asked her whether she would want to go back to sch, without much thought she immediately said no. Well, at least now she got something that she is passionate in and enjoys learning. This coming saturday 130pm will be the first home leave after more than 3 months in SGH. Hope that everything will be all right and she'll able to appreciate everything better.
Today went to ST Marine with my dad to attend a suppliers' forum. Imagine when I reached office at 8, I have to set off to fetch my dad to tuas not long after. As usual, we were caught in the morning jam but thank God that we managed to reach the place at 9am and with the strict security, our camera phones were surrendered to the security guard. The forum was also a place where the top 20 suppliers of ST Marine gather to have a little recognition by them and to see the purchasers' faces. I was surprised that Tong Sim is one of the top 6 suppliers of the year 05/06. Other than 1 other supplier whom we know are of the same field, the other 4 are non marine/electrical related. The forum mainly is a place whereby ST Marine sets off what they wish to achieve and expect from the suppliers (and where else to spearhead the campaign other than announcing it to their top major suppliers at a gathering?) We also get to see the shipyard whereby they are building the navy frigate and commercial vessels. It was really an eye opener. The vessels are huge and majestic in their completed form and one will really be amazed at the masterpiece when it finally launches into the sea.
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